Wednesday, August 22, 2007

K.

As you are guided into the room, the sounds smell and arrangement will forever stick with you until eternity takes over.

A new milestone that you will succeed in.
A new refreshing change that you will thrive at.
A new opportunity of growth.

I wish I could tell you how excited I am that you're going today.
I wish you could feel my emotions flowing from my heart mind and soul.

I want to tell you that there's nothing to worry about.
I want to tell you that you'll have fun.
I want to tell you that you'll enjoy it so much that before you know it, it'll be done.

I don't need to tell you not to worry. You're so well adjusted.
You're not scared, you're not anxious, you're just ready for it all.

I hope that it won't go by as fast for you as it did for me.
I hope that you'll be able to grasp time by your hands and slow it down.

To give yourself more time to memorize the smell, sounds, and arrangements.
To give yourself more time for developing relationships.

You're ready. You're up and ready to go.

I am so excited for you. I can't wait to see you go. But that lump of mine appears within my throat, choking back the tears that have began to surface around my eyes. It's just hard letting go. Something so simple as this task today, is a very special milestone for you and me.

Seeing you, being guided into the doors, all proud, shoulders squared up holding onto that weight that you'll be carrying along for at least 13 years.

I know without a doubt you'll do well.
I know without a doubt you'll love it.

And I won't embarrass you with those sensitive tears. I'll stand proud just like you, as I watch you being guided away from me.

Thank you for teaching me something new. I'm so very proud of you.
I remember my first day, and I'm certain you'll always remember yours.

I love you dear Jackson.
Enjoy your first day of Kindergarten.


I promise I won't cry-at least I won't while you're around, but the moment you're out of sight, and I walk Sullivan and Ben home, and that phone rings with the question that will get the tears going...
"how are you doing?" The tears of joy will flow freely. I'm not sad that you're going to kindergarten, I'm sad that it went by way to fast.

Welcome To Crustybeef~
Now I get it.

8 comments:

austere said...

Now you've got me weepy too. :)

CRUSTYBEEF said...

Austere:
awww, sorry!!! It's just an interesting day with him starting real school, you know?
Always,
Crusty~

Blufeenix said...

My kidlet starts 1st grade next Monday, I know as soon as the bus pulls out of sight I will be a mess. Then I get over it and will be fine until he goes away to school in 12 years.

Anonymous said...

I am holding back the tears as i read this posting..I am so very sad that I will not be able to attend his frist day. It is killing me inside...I hope he understands how much he means to me and how excited I am for him to start this new journey. It breaks myheart and I feel like a horrible father...very hard to deal with..at least I know that he has you and the imense love that you have for him to be there through this special day. He is lucky that he has a sahm that gives him so much love and guidance...i will be thinking about all of you as i sit here in my office...

Portia said...

how exciting and heartbreaking all at once! i will be a mess when that day comes, but it is awesome that you will be there to take him and pick him up, especially today. i know they have to grow up, but does it have to happen SO fast??

congratulations, Crusty & Family, on this wonderful milestone!!

KYRIE said...

Hope ur kid had a great first day!! Hope the little dude made a lot of friends!!
Crusty, this post is really beautiful!! U are really a talented writer.
I was home schooled until the the middle of 2nd grade. My first day of school began in 2nd grade :)

Anonymous said...

Awww, Waxon is starting school!! I can't believe how quickly he's grown :)

CRUSTYBEEF said...

Bluefeenix: Good luck! my mom said 1st grade is even harder..GREAT!!! I'll be thinking of you next week..sigh..bring dark sunglasses to hide the teary eyes!!

anon: you're a great dad. I love you!! :)no worries about not being there. He understands, and you know that-I hope.....

Portia: I wish it would slow down a bit..goes by so fast you're absolutely correct.

Kyrie: homeschool is great too. Did you think it helped you or hurt you? He did have a great day..and I loved how you referred to him as "dude" as he is such a little dude. :)

anon: I KNOW!! remember when you guys were at the hospital? sigh,..so fast so fast..can you stop time for me, please?

Always,
Crusty~