Cheryl: it's sooo hard being a parent. I can internally feel my emotional floodgates begining to surface-maybe I need to go back on zoloft..I don't get as much time as I selfishly want-my alter ego-my all about myself area-but I can't be like that-I only sometimes wish I wouldn't get these heartaches because than I could just be a miserable person that doesn't care-it'd be easier on the heart-less hurt I think..but I have bigdogg who is always willing and pushing for me to go out by myself-I just can't will myself to go-the guilt of leaving, and the yearning to rather spend time with the entire family and enjoy these times because someday death will find me and well, you know..
Soul: Oh yeah, I'm a bit back and forth right now..just wrote a thing on peace and after writing to cheryl and now you I'm all, eekk..teeth clenched over my own internal issues not due to anyones just mine..so now it's about 6:17am and I'm going to go outside again and have my first am smoke and finish my 2nd cup of coffee.
see you guys later, I hope! Thanks to all of you for making me not "feel" so isolated-incredible world this blogoworld-
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Im not even wasting time to spell check this, now it's 6:19am and I need that cigarette.
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